Susah dia yang tahap macam........

okay , told you my week is so full of test and assignments and quizzes and stuff i've to get done with .

so bila dah busy yang tersangat busy , i becoming somewhat macam mamai mamai gituh tau . ni pun im in my lunch break . lunch break kita lepak lah dulu minum segelas dua makan sepinggan dua tiga empat limaaaaa dulu kannnn :)

semalam ada test Process Chemistry , susah dia tahap yang macam....

.macam  tengah fikir antara telur ayam dengan ayam , mana satu yang wujud dulu . susah dia macam tengah decide, hari ni lunch nak makan apa . susah dia yang macam tengah fikir kenapa lipas wujud . susah dia yang macam tahap tengah fikir hari ni nak tuang kelas yang mana satu . haaaaaaaaa ~

dia yang susah dia sampai , masa kelas Calculus , i think i was carried away lah dengan Process Chemistry tu , Lecturer yang ajar Calculus MAT 435 ni beri satu equation yang ''pendek'' then suruh PROVE equation kanan dengan kiri tu sama .

soalan dia was dW/dx = ................. (okay panjang weyh taip pun macam ada function kan ? haha)

Lecturer habes je tulis soalan then mestilah suruh kiteorang semua figure out jawapan . i dont know what's with me , i raised my hand sebab nak tanya soalan . kalau dah tanya soalan dekat lecturer takkan lah suara slow slow kan? mestilah i kinda cakap kuat sikit . My question was :

''SO JAWAPAN AKHIR DIA APA ? ''

satu kelas riuh . dan aku malu .
itu baru sikit je aku mengarut tu , ni otw balik lepas Test Process Chemistry ,

Sampai Kolej Mawar, i inserted the key lepas tu rasa nak marah ! memang nak marah betul betul marah lah kan sebab pintu tak boleh bukak ! dah apahal pulak tombol pintu ni nak bergurau senda pulak ! aihh marah betul =='

sekali ada seorang kawan ni pun baru balik kelas , Izzati nama dia . Selamba je lah i tegur dia cakap sikit say 'Hi' apa semua lepas tu teruskan usaha nak masuk bilik lah . then Izzati keluarkan kunci ,senang je dia masuk bilik dia . lagi lah i nak marah kannnnn ~

lepas tu PAPPPPPP !!

''EH APAHAL IZZATI MASUK BILIK DEPAN BILIK AKU PULAK NIH?! BUKAN BILIK DIA DEPAN LAGI KE ? EH APA HAL NI WEYH ?! '' - monolog dalaman Shazliyana .

walau apa pun usaha aku teruskan dengan kunci tu aku pulas kanan pulas kiri , nak masuk bilik punya pasal .

Izzati dah berkekek kekek gelak depan pintu bilik dia .

''KAU APAHAL SHAZ ! MENDA KAU NAK MASUK BILIK ORANG NI OIH!! HAHAHAHAHAHHA '' - Izzati


Aku pun tengok pintu bilik , tengok rak kasut , tengok kasut kasut semua ,tengok gambar penghuni depan pintu bilik tu .semuanya lain , tak sama dengan bilik aku . SIGH = = '

''KAU NI PAHAL , SHAZZZZ ! '' - Shaz . ini monolog luaran .

Bilik aku hujung lagi sebenarnya . sebenarnya lah .... hujung lagiiiiii .

belum sempat aku nak cover malu apa semua , one of the girls yang duduk dalam bilik tu balik . Of Course lah dia pandang pelik dekat aku .Dah aku ni dengan kunci apa semua ni aku berdiri depan bilik dia .

dah tak memasal , aku kena explain aku silap bilik , aku takde niat apa pun nak masuk bilik orang suka suka hati . Ingat dia nak marah , okayyyyy kena gelak .

masuk bilik , letak barang apa semua . i headed for a shower to rinse off semua kekusutan . Aku okay sebenarnya , test tu yang gila . test tu yang gila , aku ulang lagi , TEST TU YANG GILA . done :*

cuma 2 ni lah perkara major merepek yang i've done . yang lain macam boleh di maafkan lah . hahahahaha

aihhh Shazzzzz Shazzzz :)

okay lah , jom complete kan assignments . ada 3 je lagi Shazzzz . tak banyakkkk puunnnn . POSITIVE YEAH !!!!

SHAZLIYANA .

I THOUGHT IT WAS HARD . IT WASNT. I JUST NEEDED TIME :)

Moving over has never been this hard but eventually , i did tho it consumed so many days and nights. Never did I plan to fall for anyone in any ways yet i fell in so deep , too deep . Each time i used to make myself believe that ''i'm okay'', really ... i was not at all.

staying away doesnt mean letting go . staying away doesnt mean not moving on .

Each time you come around again , i couldnt resist .  I swore myself not to let you in , not ever . So i've come out with plans to get me off you . I must say , what I've done takes up courage in me just to think of it, let alone doing it . But i have to , i know i have to .

I cut off all connections between us , so I couldnt find you anymore like I always wanted to
and you ...
and you couldnt come back like you always do , love .


It has been almost 2 weeks since , i guess we're both fine .

I dont know where you're at .
I dont know who you're with .
I dont know a thing about you anymore .

and I dont know how much longer this will be .

I very much hope for you not to....not to come around again.We dont need this , dont we ? Our focus NOW lies only for our future, our parents and our careers .


Just please , wherever you are , whoever you're with , whatever you do .. take care and stay safe Iqmal Amir :)



SHAZLIYANA 

Anugerah Naib Canselor

You're all i see .

Until you're mine , i wont stop .

I wont rest , until you're mine .

Sabar Dan Teruskan :)

i cant explain on how busy this week will be for me . semua lah subject yang i belajar nak ada test ! okay i memang suka test semua ni , suka sangat ! serius tak tipu . suka lah dapat markah tinggi tinggi kan :) *kalau dapatttttttt :'( its okay Shaz, boleh dapat punyaahhhh ! :)

last Friday night takde nak TGIF TGIF TGIF mana lah kan since at 8.30pm i got a Calculus test . tapi tak apa lah , pergi sahaja dan jawab lah segala ln log infinity apa tu L'Hopital Rules eh tak kesah lah i just buat sahaja . betul ke salah jawapan i , i nak fullmark juga i dont care . tak kira jugak nak fullmark juga tak kira :)

okay so since today is Saturday , i got up pretty late (lambat sikit je punnn) , pick up phone then gossip dengan Mama for 2 hours . niat sebenarnya nak cerita sikit sikit je tapi eh entah ber gossip pulaaaaaaa :) so plan nak study Fluid Mechanics yang nak test on 1st Nov tu pun tergendala lah .

it was almost 2pm and i havent had my lunch yet . so i waited for my roomates, Ain Aminah and Em. Ain went back late with 2 sunburned spots on her cheecks because of that Kesatria thingy .

 ''Shaz ! Shaz ! muka aku merah kaaan ? alahai macam mana ni huduh nanti !!! '' - Ain
''Relax lah weh , merah sikit je tu, nanti dah hilang merah dia jadi hitam lahhhhhhhhh.hahahaha''- Shaz


oh Em pulak cerita dia macam ni , aku gerak banyak kali pun tak nak bangun rasa macam nak curah air dari atas kepala dia sehingga kaki dia je . tapi kalau buat betul betul , lenjun katil dia , kang  malam kena kongsi katil pulak ==' so okay takpe lah , curah je air dekat kasut dia .

on the way nak keluar pergi lunch .
''eh apasal kasut aku basah ni eh ? '' -Em
''tadi masa kau tidur , hujan sikit tu ahhhhh '' - Shaz

Ain mampu gelak je . okayyyyy Em dapat tangkap maksud semua ni lalu 'kena' lah aku :')

Em dengan Ain brought me to an Arabic restaurant. i never had eaten NASI ARAB tau sebelum ni , so tadi was my first time and i dont like it . tak suka tak suka tak suka tak suka . jadi pergi beli makanan lain dekat foodcourt . Ain Aminah dengan Em jugak yang teman kan :)

so malam ni , s'posly i need to settle kan AutoCAD ni . ada lah benda nak kene buat tapi tak pe lah Shaz.Kita stay up eh buat benda ni . buat slow slow nanti siap lah tu . apa pun kena sabar dan teruskan :)


so ,

28th.Oct- Isnin ni dengar cerita ada test Engineering Drawing (memang kena practice ni buat array fillet bagai ni ) .
30th.Oct -Rabu pun ada test lagi , Process Chemistry .
31st.Oct- Assignment CPE 420 masuk oii oiii oii oiiiiii  :)
1st.Nov-Jumaat pun test jugak , Fluid Mechanics .
6th.Nov- Due Assignment Process Chemistry


YA YA YA , JADUAL KULIAH STUDENT ENGINEERING SANGAT LAH SERONOK ! GAP BANYAK , BEST NYAAAAAAAAAA tapi assignments dan test semua tu makanan kami .Jajan je semua iniiiiiii .busy sebenarnya tapi busy simpan diam diam lah , tak gelabah sangat macam student _______________ .

hahaha , isi lah tempat kosong tu dengan apa apa jawapan pun , semua jawapan anda betul .

please pray for me to obtain both the knowledge and A's for the test ! thank you people ! :* :* :*

jap lah , tengok movie dulu laaahhhhhh . 


SHAZLIYANA .

You're Not On My List , Love .

Is it today that i've learnt all that i wanted are on a list i've made ?

Im being harsh on myself but only because i know my capabilities.
sometimes it scares me of knowing what im capable of doing .

All of my goals are completely reachable yet a thing may backfires all.A thing ,what's really is the thing?

It's LOVE .

you're my last and let it be that way .  You , being so far away from me - is a new beginning .

Right now , all i ever need is FOCUS . I dont see how my future will involve you , I couldnt picture you in mine anyway .


today and forever shall be ,

NEED TO CONSTANTLY check upon my list.what's in it need FOCUS.what's not,should never be cared for .

Goodluck and Goodbye .


SHAZLIYANA .